Nurse Meat … Vol 1

Nurse Meat | 24. Aug, 2011 by Lalani Malley | Comments Off

Nurse Meat Vol 1… GAME

Tonight is one of those nights… you know the type that last for an eternity. Too much is on my mind, and I just want to be free. So, I went by my lake and did the only thing that keeps my mind focused. “Shadow boxing”, my eyes were closed, body relaxed, hands up and I just released them, each punch thrown with grace, but intention. My intentions are to let my inner, hurting being breathe and start to heal. Life seems to faithfully show her ass again. It reminds me of that song, “Game of Love”, by Santana and featuring the lovely Michelle Branch. Aside from currently despising that song, I have to admit that’s my life, a game. Love is out of the Question. Misery loves to lurk by my shadow consistently, because of that bitch cupid. Why, does he find enjoyment of hitting me with the dull arrows *duds*. I am like dude, girl…wtf ever you are, my apologies for being a typical Filipino girl when it comes to love.

I realize I am arrogant and it may be too much for people to handle, but I have so much more than that to offer. Blame the arrogance on my confidence. I am not perfect, I am far from it I am human. Since my sad reality at this point is to be alone. I am just going to accept it. I am finished with this game and I need to stop and start doing things good for myself.I am turning to the only thing that never fails me even though I have a bad day! It is my guide my friend and lover that inspires me to start a new chapter in my life as “Nurse Meat“.
-Love found and I can’t help how it has treated me. But, eventually I broke away, learned and endured it. -Lalani Malley